This will be short, for me at least.  I am, with any luck going to be able to get my mother in an assisted living place by this weekend.  I am sad, scaired, and joyfull all at the same time,  Pretty emotionally slammed to the wall.  I have 2 places I would like to see her get into.  They are both very different and I have to choos one.  She can't in all fairness becuase I am lucky if she remembers anything 5 minutes let alone two faciities.

I just wanted to stop and say hello and let everyone know all is well here.  Any way on some level it is well.  I know that I am drained and just about have no energe left for me or anyone else.  I have to find a way to shrink my daily stressors where I can.  At least my home business is holding it's own so my spousal type person is not bugging me to look for a job right now.  He has really mellowed out since I have been doing so much with my mother.  It's one of those that is kind of a I need for you to at the very least support me in this since he won't  do anything else to help me out.

I am still doing the best I can to stay in touch with any part of my life that I can is down times.  My quandry has been sedated for at bit and I now have a plan of action.  I will take the one I have now and if we want to mover her later on we will.  Just that much of a plan has eased so much of the termoil in my head and heart to calm to a gentle scream.  The goddess and Gods do wo show me the path when I take a moment to listen. 

Blessings and joys to me and you.